For my bitch, cough, I mean friend Soopdove who had to deal with real life and deactivated her account. This one's for you, bitch.
It's also for the other fanfic writers who have left DA and who I don't think I'll ever see again unfortunately. I miss you guys a lot. QueenofDragons99 and Conselyea
It's hard to lose a fellow writer.
It's weird, you know?
How attached you can get to someone on the internet.
Someone sitting on the other side of a screen.
Someone like me.
When I first meet them,
Our conversations are full of pretty words,
"Thank you" and all these other phrases of gratitude,
But then we take this step.
They take one step.
And surprisingly, the I reciprocate.
And suddenly, I know something about them.
They know something about me.
They earn my trust.
And I earn theirs.
Eventually, we decide to use the special word,
When they're still here,
I learn about their insecurities,
Their quirks, their worries, their joys,
And suddenly, I feel as if I've known them my entire life.
We might be a million and one miles apart,
But I feel so close.
I feel accepted.
And maybe, they do too?
So why do they leave?
Is it because they need to take a break?
Is it because they don't feel appreciated?
Is it because of other responsibilities?
Whatever the reason,
I support it wholeheartedly.
Even if I might not understand why.
But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less.
It hurts, a lot.
Sure, I've met a lot of people on DA,
I've made a lot of friendships.
But that doesn't mean that one loss
can be made up with another gain.
Each friend is unique to me.
Each writing style gives a different personality.
They're all so beautiful.
And I've had the opportunity to read them.
I read your stories.
I learned about your life.
You let me understand you on a deeper level than what your fanfics let on.
I became friends with you.
And you haven't been forgotten. I still miss you guys a lot.
Good luck with wherever life takes you. And if you have the chance, come by and say hi. :')
Loves of love,
I'm kinda crying right now sooooo. yeah. haha. I think it's because of this: www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vNsAH… Songs always enhance the feels. And I just have way too many feels to deal with this right now. God, it sucks when a friend leaves. I really do get pretty down. :/
For those of you that don't know the above people,
Conselyea: She wrote Human Nature with me. She was one of my first watchers and my first friend on DA. When I looked back at my very first notes, she was the person who I talked to the most on DA. I was a little older, but I honestly felt like she was more mature than me. I still do.
QueenofDragons99: She and I surprisingly became even better friends when she left DA and moved to AO3 but now she left AO3 as well.... So needless to say, I miss her a ton. My favorite fic of hers was Syndicate. She always came off as an older, wiser friend, and someone who I could rely on.
Soopdove: you bitch. I miss you. and I already told you that. She's a relatively new writer who literally wrote a fic a day almost. Amazing ideas, talented writer. And a friend with a really interesting but loveable personality. Oh and she's hot. lol. Well, I'm not too sad about her cuz we're still keeping in touch lol. But I'm going to miss her fics a ton :/