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For my bitch, cough, I mean friend Soopdove who had to deal with real life and deactivated her account. This one's for you, bitch.

It's also for the other fanfic writers who have left DA and who I don't think I'll ever see again unfortunately. I miss you guys a lot. QueenofDragons99 and Conselyea

It's hard to lose a fellow writer.

It's weird, you know?
How attached you can get to someone on the internet.
Someone sitting on the other side of a screen.
Someone like me.

When I first meet them,
Our conversations are full of pretty words,
"Thank you" and all these other phrases of gratitude,
But then we take this step.

They take one step.
And surprisingly, the I reciprocate.
And suddenly, I know something about them.
They know something about me.

They earn my trust.
And I earn theirs.
Eventually, we decide to use the special word,
"Friends."

When they're still here,
I learn about their insecurities,
Their quirks, their worries, their joys,
And suddenly, I feel as if I've known them my entire life.

We might be a million and one miles apart,
But I feel so close.
I feel accepted.
And maybe, they do too?

So why do they leave?
Is it because they need to take a break?
Is it because they don't feel appreciated?
Is it because of other responsibilities?

Whatever the reason,
I support it wholeheartedly.
Even if I might not understand why.
But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less.

It hurts, a lot.

Sure, I've met a lot of people on DA,
I've made a lot of friendships.
But that doesn't mean that one loss
can be made up with another gain.

Each friend is unique to me.
Each writing style gives a different personality.
They're all so beautiful.
And I've had the opportunity to read them.

I read your stories.
I learned about your life.
You let me understand you on a deeper level than what your fanfics let on.
I became friends with you.

And you haven't been forgotten. I still miss you guys a lot.

Good luck with wherever life takes you. And if you have the chance, come by and say hi. :')

Loves of love,
K

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I'm kinda crying right now sooooo. yeah. haha. I think it's because of this: www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vNsAH… Songs always enhance the feels. And I just have way too many feels to deal with this right now. God, it sucks when a friend leaves. I really do get pretty down. :/

For those of you that don't know the above people,

Conselyea: She wrote Human Nature with me. She was one of my first watchers and my first friend on DA. When I looked back at my very first notes, she was the person who I talked to the most on DA. :) I was a little older, but I honestly felt like she was more mature than me. I still do.

QueenofDragons99: She and I surprisingly became even better friends when she left DA and moved to AO3 but now she left AO3 as well....:( So needless to say, I miss her a ton. My favorite fic of hers was Syndicate. She always came off as an older, wiser friend, and someone who I could rely on.

Soopdove: you bitch. I miss you. and I already told you that. She's a relatively new writer who literally wrote a fic a day almost. Amazing ideas, talented writer. And a friend with a really interesting but loveable personality. Oh and she's hot. lol. Well, I'm not too sad about her cuz we're still keeping in touch lol. But I'm going to miss her fics a ton :/
yup. I'm feeling depressed. thank you life LOL
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oOXperyaOo Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
QueenofDragons99?
I swear to God I've seen that name somewhere else.
Like, an author who wrote a reader insert fic on FanFiction.net said to check her DA for a lemon.
It was a while ago, but damn....
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2014
she still writes on wattpad i think under the name akaluv?
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minionlover101 Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014
I feel u
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014
Thank you :')
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minionlover101 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014
Ur welcome :3
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Conselyea Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're so silly! 
Honestly, I still check DA once in a while, but I only went through my breakup two months ago and stuff. And I'm actually still adjusting to my new relationship and my work. Work has actually occupied a lot of my time. I'm literally out of the house for 11 hours a day. And when I get home, I really only have 3 hours to myself. 
So with that time, I talk to my boyfriend, eat dinner, and take a shower and browse facebook. 
But I'm actually on the contrary not gone from DA and it's not to say that I will never write again. 
I think that collab was really brilliant and I would love to do another one sometime soon, 
but in the mean time since I really can't type my ideas out, I'm actually keeping a journal with all of it in it! 
And I'm not gone, if you need to reach me, I'm always on facebook! I'll message it to you. :) 
I'm really active there!
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014
AHHHHHHHH

*literally internally screamed with joy when I read this cuz it's like 4 am LOL*

But OMG I'll just reply to ur note hehe but glad to hear back from u :333
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Myuzuka Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014
shoooosh I know it's hard I know that feel but don't be so sad
I know I'm not look like them, but if you want to talk about it I'm here.
Is hard to lost a good writter on DA and I hope you don't left DA too ;A; because I'm gonna be so sad after
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014
Hehe I won't but I'll probably be a little less active once school starts >_<
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Myuzuka Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014
I know that ;A; please take good care of you >w<! and Gambate!
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2014
thank you dear :))))
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akaluv Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

Hey!! Bott-chan here :)

This is my second DA account used for my poems and original stories.  I logged into my old queenofdragons account to pull off my old fanfics when I see this in my DA watch list. I’m so sorry that I haven’t responded to you on A03, I’ve been soo busy lately with my month long vacation :)

Thank you so much for thinking about me and don’t worry, we’ll keep in touch. I pulled my old stories off of A03 because I felt like they weren’t written well. I’m editing all my old stories now as we speak and I will be uploading them slowly back to A03.

You are such a nice, sweet person and I’m sure you’re an awesome friend to have in real life as well. People like you are rare to find, so we will keep in touch for sure. Don’t worry; this DA account isn’t going anywhere. I just decided not to write Levi x readers here anymore, but if people want me to come back, I may think about it. I kind of what to finish my crazy Yandere Erwin story hahahha. Erwin was going to mess Levi up *_*

Feel free to message me anytime using this account. I check it maybe once a week and upload poems sometimes. You're such a great writer!! I hope you write an original book one day. I'll be sure to buy it and beg you to sign it!!! 

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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014
damnit girl WHY DO U KEEP DISAPPEARING ON MEHHHHH

and yeesh im happy >_< I WANT U BACK. FOR SURE. srsly though, i want you back :)

and hehe write an original book?? oh dear >_< thanks for reaching out to me. i was srsly really sad when u left that note on AO3 :((((((

much love,
pony-chan
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akaluv Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Oh and did you read about how Levi is clumsy with love? hahahah I can't wait to write some one shots with Levi falling all over the place because he sees reader-chan. I think it fits him soo well to be clumsy when it comes to love. 

hahahh Levi just keeps getting more awesome and cute. I wish he was real!!!!! :*cries a huge river of sadness*
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TheCleaningFairy Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Eeee, I'm already feeling depressed because today was the last day at camp!*coughMainlyBecauseIWasCrushingOnMyGroupLeaderCoughCough* *CoughHisNameWasKenAndHeWasSuperHotIMeanHisHairWasHotCoughCough*

Yeah...anyway, I'm not planning on leaving anytime soon, I'm just getting started!
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
LOLOLOL well good to know darling. and lmao i know what it's like to crush on a guy like htat. had a huuuuge crush on my TA was lab, so i was really sad when that class ended cuz i took it last semester of uni and had to graduate :(((
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TheCleaningFairy Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I've already scribbled his name all over the very last page in my manga, which is where nobody ever looks. I think I'm obsessed, considering everytiem I clsoe my eyes I see him. TT^TT
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
LOL XD oh dear oh dear we've got a VERY intense fangirl here
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TheCleaningFairy Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:O It ryhmed
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014
hahah damn im a poet and i don't even know it XD
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kaoru-reisaki Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Not planning on leaving! ;) 
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
Better not be =.=
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kaoru-reisaki Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
NEVER!!! xD 

I mean, ya know, I’m here all year round. :P 

I’m so excited with all my ideas and all!! I’m overflowing with ideas!! Busy juggling with my book idea as well as visa application! cx
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
hehe i know i know XD and yes i still need to read ur insanely long reply LOLOLOL
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kaoru-reisaki Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh goodies. Real sorry for all the long replies! I can’t help it! xD
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Attackontooshie Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You seem like a really good friend, and seem like you have a good sense in which friends you have c: I literally have 0% relativity with any of this but I'm sure they won't forget you either :) if you or anyone else needs someone to talk to, then I'm willing to listen and all that :D
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
Hehe one, ur username is super super cute

And two, thank you darling :) it means a lot to me that you'd do that <3

And I mean, even if this post isn't necessarily about u, I'm sure u can relate to losing friends because of distance or some reason. It's a normal part of human life but also a sad time :/ but that's why we also have support from wonderful people like yourself :)
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Attackontooshie Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Omgg thanks! And yeah I feel like I'm currently losing my best friend so I can relate to the sadness and pain of all of this :/ and of course! we all need some support sometimes! (/^ω^)/
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
here any time u need to talk :) a little busy at the moment but i always get to every message at some point. usually within a week XD but really though, if u need someone to talk to, you know who to go to ;)
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Attackontooshie Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks!! Same to you c: and omg I totally understand the whole being busy part xD 
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Attackontooshie Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Btw you're like my favorite writer, just adding this in hopes to make you feel better!! Like holy shit you're stories are really well thought out xD
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Keira-Giordano Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Student Writer
Aw.... Fortunately I'm not planning to deactivate my account until.... well.... a few more years ^_^ I guess. 


But I'm Happy I'm Friends with you SmexyLeviLover  ^_^ Thanks for reading mah fics man. I  LOVE YOU!
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
Hehe I love u too. And u bettah tell me how to get In touch with u if u ever leave got it?!?!
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Keira-Giordano Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Student Writer
Roger that! I'll note you my Facebook and my Gmail account ^_^ or maybe Skype okay?
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
got it darling BUT GET A SNAPCHATTTT
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Keira-Giordano Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Student Writer
Oh sure sure!! Hahahaha
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MidnightKat1 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I don't know you personally which makes me feel like I don't have a place in saying this but none-the-less I will: I think your honesty and self expression in this is very heart warming and touching to even someone that has very little knowledge in this area of life. It hurts to lose people - to lose those bonds and connections. I really like that you aren't really mad at them either - you're UNDERSTANDING, which in the end, I think is all a person can ask of another. 

I hope you catch up with them sometime! And even if you don't or can't, keep the memories close and look on them fondly. :) although you probably already do that 
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
Read ur comment during work. Smiled and teared up.

Thank you for your kind words. I hope I can catch up to them too. And then maybe they'll tell me how silly it was to miss them. And I'll laugh and say that I'm glad to have them back. Who knows. :)
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Galactic-Oceans Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
It's a shame they all left. But you know, they all have their reasons and that's completely understandable. I'll miss them though.
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
Yep. I support them in whatever they do. As long as it makes them happy
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Galactic-Oceans Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Same here.
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HumanitysShortest Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
If I lose you, I don't what the hell would I do ;_____; <3 <3
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
:) you'd find me again? Hehe well y'all have my email from that suspended oneshot I wrote so u can always reach out to me if I disappear.

But I don't wanna leave.

And I don't want u to leave either!
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HumanitysShortest Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hug Heart 
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koukousha Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
holly shiiiit those are good writers OMG !!!!
come back plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
I know I know :(((
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koukousha Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
don't disappear you too okay :iconaawplz: 
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
i won't :) at least without a decent reason XD hahaha
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koukousha Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thank god , even if you do i'll stalk you XD
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SmexyLeviLover Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014
Uh. K. Lol :P
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